But... maybe it wasn't the time I realized I wanted to.
After I found out what the ribbon meant... I started dwelling on who Lan Zhan liked a lot. I wanted to know, I was scared to ask. We were traveling on the road, and couldn't help notice how good we seemed together. I thought it would be nice to retire and live next to each other. We could have dinner together and see each other every day.
It was only really later when the question kept eating me up, and I couldn't ask him properly that it was hard to ignore.
I didn't know how badly I wanted to kiss him, and more until he wouldn't let go of hand when I was teasing him in the bath.
i came to you thinking you'd be helpful. ah! is this how i am with other people? is this how people see me? no wonder jiang cheng is always yelling at me, you're so ridiculous!
[ that stuff about settling down with lan zhan, though - wei wuxian... is not opposed. at all. it sounds dreamlike, actually. ]
who even dared to give lan zhan a bad kiss? what kind of goblin would do such a thing?
[ just drag yourself, wei wuxian, just DRAG YOURSELF ]
I was pinned to a tree and ravished! My lips bitten and bleeding!
He didn't even let me see him! He ran away and pretended as if nothing happened! I would have never known if I didn't put the pieces together later. I would have always thought it was a shy yet very strong cultivator girl with a crush on me.
Of course it was! I know very well it was and he admitted to it when I confronted him. I keep telling everyone they have the wrong impression, they're fooled! He is so far from the pure righteous person everyone sees in front of them.
Exactly! They just see his pure white robes and stern expression and the reputation of GusuLan. They don't see anything deeper!
And then, when I'm around everyone has all sorts of baseless accusations and assumptions which aren't true at all and they're never as nice as what they assume of him!
exactly! they think it's my influence, that i'm corrupting him, but lan zhan has always been like that! a meanie! all that white and blue and that frown, like it'll hide the fact that he's full of tricks and won't hesitate to tear you apart without warning!
He also isn't truthful! They think he can't lie, but he is the worst of liars! A liar who can lie with a straight and honest face! The worst part is that they're not even technically lies, but they are definitely lies at heart! The intention is still there! And when he can't lie or avoid a situation? He just pretends it didn't happen! He just won't answer! He's so stubborn!
It's because he's a barely restrained coward that will rather suffer silently and steal mementos than say anything proper directly. He will take his secrets to the grave unless they're forced out of him.
Of course he does. I'm sure you'll figure it out the more you're around him.
And he can't? I'm suprised! Maybe that is a difference, though I didn't know he could until recently. I can't picture Zewu Jun cooking st all, so there I definitely agree.
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you kissed him. after playing tag. of course.
why did i even ask you, i regret this entirely. you're not helpful at all!
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Though that was the first time I did it.
But... maybe it wasn't the time I realized I wanted to.
After I found out what the ribbon meant... I started dwelling on who Lan Zhan liked a lot. I wanted to know, I was scared to ask. We were traveling on the road, and couldn't help notice how good we seemed together. I thought it would be nice to retire and live next to each other. We could have dinner together and see each other every day.
It was only really later when the question kept eating me up, and I couldn't ask him properly that it was hard to ignore.
I didn't know how badly I wanted to kiss him, and more until he wouldn't let go of hand when I was teasing him in the bath.
Anyway, his first kiss story is worse than mine.
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[ that stuff about settling down with lan zhan, though - wei wuxian... is not opposed. at all. it sounds dreamlike, actually. ]
who even dared to give lan zhan a bad kiss? what kind of goblin would do such a thing?
[ just drag yourself, wei wuxian, just DRAG YOURSELF ]
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Who said it was bad! It was memorable and passionate!
It was just also completely shameless!
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WHAT DID YOU DO?
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I was assaulted!
I was pinned to a tree and ravished! My lips bitten and bleeding!
He didn't even let me see him! He ran away and pretended as if nothing happened! I would have never known if I didn't put the pieces together later. I would have always thought it was a shy yet very strong cultivator girl with a crush on me.
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And then, when I'm around everyone has all sorts of baseless accusations and assumptions which aren't true at all and they're never as nice as what they assume of him!
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why does he do this, it's almost always just to me, too. he rarely treats other people like this, if ever!
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did you know he just grabbed my stomach? and then groped me! and he didn't even apologize or say anything!
i mean it felt nice but that's beside the point!
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Scandalous! Of course, he didn't, apologizing would be admitting he did it in the first place or explaining why he did it.
Of course, it felt nice, those hands are deft at the guqin, strong and nimble fingers.
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okay, that's enough, we can stop there, this conversation is heading to some strange places!
aah lan zhan, why are you so
so much
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Repression. If you're not allowed to run around and play, that is what you become.
Were you imagining something embarrassing?
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yes
embarrassing for me?
he was folding sheets earlier and i was dumbstruck with how graceful he was, pulling the sheets this way and that. it's dumb!
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It would be nice to paint him doing basic chores. It would be a funny contrast!
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he can't cook, though. neither of the jades can, they're too strong for the utensils.
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And he can't? I'm suprised! Maybe that is a difference, though I didn't know he could until recently. I can't picture Zewu Jun cooking st all, so there I definitely agree.
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he needs to let me sleep on the floor sometime too, i can't just hog the bed all the time.
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