Fear and anxiety are hardly unfamiliar emotions for him; he lives with them constantly. At home, it's constant worry over Jin Guangyao discovering him and all his sacrifices being for naught and even worse, the destruction of his sect under his leadership. Here, it's Xue Yang's threats. Thus far, he's been easier to manage than his boss but it'd be unwise to underestimate him.
Subconsciously, Huaisang rubs at his shoulder briefly before just leaning his head on Wei Wuxian's shoulder. After a moment, he straightens up again.]
If you take your clothes off, I'll show you how these things work.
[As for his own, it might take a little more effort to get him to undress, given the fresh bite marks he has on his body and all.]
[It just felt a little sudden. He had never thought about something going in there before, not really. Not as something he would want anyway. But, he was curious. Did that mean between men...?
Deciding he really had to stop feeling a bit shy and holding himself back and started listening his robes. The thing about hesitance, it never gets you anywhere. They had goals right? They talked about them three months ago. There was no reason to keep holding himself back. And what was he holding himself back for anyway? Were not things already as they were?]
[Maybe it is a bit sudden to him but Huaisang's been as patient and accommodating as he can be in this situation. After three months of discussing the tasks, cuddling, kissing, and sharing a bed every night and being fed aphrodisiac laced food nonstop.... it's taken its toll. If not for his experiences with Xue Yang, Huaisang might have gone on like that indefinitely, but he's more aware of his needs now.
And as Wei Wuxian's shown more enthusiasm, Huaisang's shown more confidence as he's learned how to be bolder through his experiences with others on the island.]
I'll try my best. I don't want to hurt you.
[He's not Xue Yang, simply a tool with a high pain tolerance that Huaisang's growing fond of the more he uses him. Wei Wuxian is a person that he actually cares about.]
When you're ready, come lay on the bed.
[Their rather fancy new one with the privacy curtains and spotted sheets.]
[Somehow being so deliberate made it all more... strange. It was much easier to go with things on momentum. But, sometimes you just had to jump over the initial awkwardness. Like talking to a girl, it might feel a little weird at first, but once you said something it got easier.
Once he had removed his clothes he came over to the bed crawling onto it.]
[It is a little strange but deliberate it just how Huaisang is with people he cares for and doesn't want to lose. While he can still be impulsive and spontaneous, it takes an immense amount of trust or an absence of care for the other person. His last days with his brother were ones where he'd lacked restraint over his emotions or temper and they haunt him still to this day, ghosts from the past arising when and where he least expects it.
But Huaisang's been working on some issues, too, during these past few months and one of them has been simply learning how to relax and be close to someone again after a decade spent keeping people at arm's length. So when Wei Wuxian crawls onto the bed, Huaisang moves to meet him, reaching out to pull him into a firm but reassuring kiss. He lingers there a moment to reassure Wei Wuxian - and maybe himself, too, on some level - that they're simply moving forward into trying new things together. It's not all that different from how they've been in the past, is it?
He withdraws, resting his forehead briefly against Wei Wuxian's before speaking.]
Just lay down on your stomach or your side wherever you like and try to get comfortable. I'll do the rest.
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Fear and anxiety are hardly unfamiliar emotions for him; he lives with them constantly. At home, it's constant worry over Jin Guangyao discovering him and all his sacrifices being for naught and even worse, the destruction of his sect under his leadership. Here, it's Xue Yang's threats. Thus far, he's been easier to manage than his boss but it'd be unwise to underestimate him.
Subconsciously, Huaisang rubs at his shoulder briefly before just leaning his head on Wei Wuxian's shoulder. After a moment, he straightens up again.]
If you take your clothes off, I'll show you how these things work.
[As for his own, it might take a little more effort to get him to undress, given the fresh bite marks he has on his body and all.]
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You want to try right now...?
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[Huaisang fiddles absently with the toy.]
Is there a particular reason to wait? All the supplies needed to try are right here.
[He points to a bottle of lube.]
This will make it much easier to take.
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[It just felt a little sudden. He had never thought about something going in there before, not really. Not as something he would want anyway. But, he was curious. Did that mean between men...?
Deciding he really had to stop feeling a bit shy and holding himself back and started listening his robes. The thing about hesitance, it never gets you anywhere. They had goals right? They talked about them three months ago. There was no reason to keep holding himself back. And what was he holding himself back for anyway? Were not things already as they were?]
Just be gentle with this virgin.
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And as Wei Wuxian's shown more enthusiasm, Huaisang's shown more confidence as he's learned how to be bolder through his experiences with others on the island.]
I'll try my best. I don't want to hurt you.
[He's not Xue Yang, simply a tool with a high pain tolerance that Huaisang's growing fond of the more he uses him. Wei Wuxian is a person that he actually cares about.]
When you're ready, come lay on the bed.
[Their rather fancy new one with the privacy curtains and spotted sheets.]
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Once he had removed his clothes he came over to the bed crawling onto it.]
How would you like me?
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But Huaisang's been working on some issues, too, during these past few months and one of them has been simply learning how to relax and be close to someone again after a decade spent keeping people at arm's length. So when Wei Wuxian crawls onto the bed, Huaisang moves to meet him, reaching out to pull him into a firm but reassuring kiss. He lingers there a moment to reassure Wei Wuxian - and maybe himself, too, on some level - that they're simply moving forward into trying new things together. It's not all that different from how they've been in the past, is it?
He withdraws, resting his forehead briefly against Wei Wuxian's before speaking.]
Just lay down on your stomach or your side wherever you like and try to get comfortable. I'll do the rest.